Prone to Wander, Lord, I Feel It

When Sarah died, the desperation of the agonizing pain of loss drove me to the feet of Jesus. As each new aspect of the sorrow of her absence crashed down upon me, the shocks repeatedly drove me to Him and His Word. It was survival, not effort. I was acutely aware that in every sense, … Continue reading Prone to Wander, Lord, I Feel It

3000 Days

"Today marks 3000 days since we were separated from Sarah." Those are the incomprehensible words of the text my husband sent me this morning. It took my breath away to read it. I don't track time like that, probably intentionally. I am acutely aware that the separation from our precious daughter has been agonizingly long, … Continue reading 3000 Days

“Sarah Day”

Today is Sarah's birthday, our eighth without her. "Eight." Such an inadequate number to describe the span of my painfully missing and longing for my child. "Forever" seems a much more accurate description of the agonizing length of time since I last held her, saw the gleam in her eyes, and delighted in hearing her … Continue reading “Sarah Day”

“Has the Pillar Moved?”

Oxford English Dictionary defines pillar figuratively as "a person seen as a source of support or stability; esp. one of the main supporters of some principle or institution, as pillar of the establishment, etc.; (more generally) a person who holds a position of public importance or respectability, as pillar of society, etc. Also: a person who possesses or displays some … Continue reading “Has the Pillar Moved?”